I felt god's presence today and I cried ..
Eversince knowing I need to do a kidney biopsy, I've been feeling so alone. As though the whole world just don't care anymore. I put on a brave front when I go to work - I joked about my kidneys. Telling people, it is simple, everything will be okay.
Now, I am covering for a colleague who is hospitalised. I worry for her - but at the same time, I don't know if I should worry for me.
Today, I went to a GP to have my daily BP checked. I told her about the biopsy, as usual I put on my strong fort. I told her my biopsy is on Tuesday and I am afraid of pain, she checked my pressure - 140/90 and as I was about to leave, the sweet, sweet doctor asked if she can pray for me and she held on to my hands, went on and on, with prayers so specific, so touching and I just broke down and cried. I hugged her, again and again.
My fort was already crumbling down, all I had was just some stupid UHU glue to keep it together. I cried, I felt GOD.
All I can say is, GOD couldn't send me an SMS to say he cared, but he sent an Angel instead.
Thank you GOD ... I love you too ...