Saturday, June 19, 2010


Bad...bad...Facebook - I shall avoid you, evil, evil "Facebook" ...

Reconnecting with my old friends made me realised how "under-achieved" I've been ...


One has twins and a high flyer ... flying all over the world,
One drives a BMW,
One co-owns a restaurant,
Two been to Nepal,
Two Doctors!
Many Lawyers,

And ME ...

Oh... Balls ... I chase after balls with Lucky ...
Now ain't that a fine moment!


Katnip Lounge said...

Heh! Facebook ain't all it's cracked up to be...I think folks tend to exaggerate a teensy bit. Plus, tangible things don't go with us when we die. Karma does...

You enjoy time with Lucky, your Cats and Family, the truly important things in life.

Kea said...

I don't do Facebook, but I've struggled with my "small" life for a long time. The thing is, always there will be people who are living supposedly better lives, grander lives, and always there will be people who have less, who are lost, destitute, homeless, etc. Most of us fall somewhere in the middle. But Bin, you can't judge someone's insides by looking at their outsides. Someone told me that years ago and it's so true. We have no idea what really is going on behind closed doors: could be domestic abuse, drugs, high debt load, a cheating spouse (unknown to the other spouse), kids with problems, maybe just a shallow perspective on life, one that is all about "things."

I struggled with this today, at my stylist's place. She's 30, works out of her own home, has been with her fiance for years. Both their parents are together, not divorced, as mine have been for decades. His father is an accountant and does their taxes/business taxes, her father is VERY handy, as is her brother and her fiance. No $500 labour charge for her for fence modifications--they've renovated their house over the past couple of years themselves. Totally. Bathroom, kitchen, windows, etc. Plus she's about a size 2 with a GREAT figure, naturally--no plastic, and is very pretty. And VERY nice.

So I look at her and think how is it that she got so lucky, to have a steady partner for so many years, have a house, no debt (except the mortgage), have savings, and have people in her life who actually can do all the handy work around the house themselves. With close family ties to boot. Emotional support.

And some of us...don't. No savings, in debt again because of vet bills and fence work, no family here and not a really close family anyway, no siblings, no partner, FAR from a size 2 (30 pounds overweight now in my middle age), pretty much alone, a depressive personality (in remission for a few years now, but still at high risk to crash again at some point).

But life is not fair, never has been and never will be, and you know what? In my case, I have so many blessings, so many things for which to be thankful: reasonably good health, a full-time job, super boss, good co-workers (except for one), a house, an abundance of food, clothing, my fur kids, my camera, my parents still living (though not close to me geographically, one of the east coast of Canada, one on the west).

So I think you also have many things for which to be thankful, because Bin, things always can be worse. Even in our darkest times, things still can be worse. Scary, but true. :-)

Anyway, I'm sending you MUCH universal Light today and many (((hugs))).

Jacqueline said...

Kea is so right, I agree 1,000% and I have felt the same way about being divorced and alone, about bad choices I wish I could change, but basically I am a positive person and I try to live in gratitude, reach for my happiness on a daily basis...Our perception forms our attitudes, which control our lives...Hang in there and know you are loved and loving=the most important things that really matter...Sending you hugs and love and kisses to Lucky!...xo...Calle, Halle, Sukki

Old Kitty said...

Awww Bin!! Noone on this planet has cats who can order pizza online and pay with your credit card - I've seen the pics!!:-)

But seriously!! You have everything to be proud of and can hold your own amongst your peers who are languishing in facebook!

You are a strong vital and fabulous woman with a heart as big and as soft and as lovely and as caring as all of them put together. They should be looking at you in AWE!! As I am!

You may not believe this but you are truly an inspiration - surviving lupus and everything else life throws at you with a great sense of humour and a fine sense of justice.

So there! Give yourself a big hug and a pat on the back!!!!! And get your sweet kitties to order you a pizza!!!

:-)Take care

Hannah and Lucy said...

One thing you have to ask yourself Bin is are these people really happy or putting a face on for the world to see.

You are a wonderful person who rescues cats and deals with lupus -how many of them have done that.

You are a fine human who cares for others.

Now throw that ball for Lucky and enjoy him.

Luv Hannah, Lucy and mum Sue xxx

lupie said...

Thank you all for sharing with me your views and kind words.

I, sometimes feel like drowning - it could be depression, I don't know.

Today, I am lucky to have positive, nice people to pull me out once in a while.

I have my happy days and there are days I sit in darkness and cry for no reason, feeling so wasted.

Now, because of Lucky, I've so much positive, kind, energy surrounding me that it makes me feel a whole lot better ...

Thanks again! You gals rock!

AttieCattie said...

there are so many of us around the world who feel the same way... does that mean something?
(Attie's mom)

Junior and Orion said...

I understand how you feel. Sometimes I feel as though I have wated my life. But then I look deeper and see that it isn't so. I may not be as accoomplished as some people I know, but I am a good person with a good life and that is enough for me.

Hang in there!!!!

Meowm Rhonda

shoshana said...

I'm there with you, small life confined to the four walls of my apartment. Other peoples lives may seem really good, and yours seem as though it is small, mundane. But you're in a heroic struggle. The stuff epic stories are made from.

So, do you want a "cushie" life or a "heroic" life? :):) OK - I'd choose cushie any day.