Glutton I am Not ..

I've been feeling nauseated for more than a week now. 

Did not vomit though, just nauseated.

Have not been eating well too ... ooohh .. now that's a big news knowing I can be quite a glutton.

I've been on "preserved fruits" (assam) for the past one week.

My office drawer is full of this sort of crap (I know it is not very kind to the kidney),

But, it is these sort of crap that kept me going at work.

I am not well, my energy is really low ..

I feel like I am breaking, again ..

And...

Guess what?

financial audit, tax

And some nasty stuff going through with the project.

my boss is ain't here yet..

 and i am suppose to guard the fort till he is here?

struggling, alone ..

worst thing?

walking pass the ladies along the corridor, smiling, saying "GREAT" when I feel like I am about to break.

OR

telling someone "I am not well"

and that someone tells me in return "I am not well too and there goes a long conversation on how 'someone' feels and blames the weather for it.."

I stopped telling PEOPLE how I 'exactly' feel.

No one will ever understand.

It will always be me and my lupus.

I look so well ... how can I be sick.

Yeah ... right.