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Sunday, January 31, 2010

Checklist ...

  1. 2-T shirts, 2-elastic pants = ok
  2. Towel = ok
  3. Disposal Undies = okay
  4. MP3 player + speaker = okay
  5. Admission form = okay
  6. Treatment book + appt cards = okay
  7. Insurances form = okay
  8. Identity Card = okay
  9. Meds = okay
  10. Previous labs records in file = okay
  11. Water Bottle = okay
  12. Minyak CAP Kapak - damn, I need CAP minyak kapak! = pending
  13. Some Hacks = pending
  14. Handphone & Charger = okay
  15. .......
Here I come, an expected 3 days, 2 nights SPA and RELAXATION treatment.....

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Polydactyl Cat, Roti Canai Stall @ Cherating


On our way back to KL on second day of 2010, we stopped by a road-side food stall for roti canai, somewhere in "Cherating" and bumped into this polydactyl kitty! He is so so handsome!

This is a very special lucky kitty, with power proven through the brisk business experienced by the stall owner! He is friendly too! :) The harbinger of luck and joy to those who stop, look and counts his toes!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Touched by an Angel ...

I felt god's presence today and I cried ..

Eversince knowing I need to do a kidney biopsy, I've been feeling so alone. As though the whole world just don't care anymore. I put on a brave front when I go to work - I joked about my kidneys. Telling people, it is simple, everything will be okay.

Now, I am covering for a colleague who is hospitalised. I worry for her - but at the same time, I don't know if I should worry for me.

Today, I went to a GP to have my daily BP checked. I told her about the biopsy, as usual I put on my strong fort. I told her my biopsy is on Tuesday and I am afraid of pain, she checked my pressure - 140/90 and as I was about to leave, the sweet, sweet doctor asked if she can pray for me and she held on to my hands, went on and on, with prayers so specific, so touching and I just broke down and cried. I hugged her, again and again.

My fort was already crumbling down, all I had was just some stupid UHU glue to keep it together. I cried, I felt GOD.

All I can say is, GOD couldn't send me an SMS to say he cared, but he sent an Angel instead.

Thank you GOD ... I love you too ...

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

MAFIA WARS - 25% Energy Pack ...

Those into MAFIA WARS (Facebook), will know what I am on about, if only the energy pack is "real" - I need one now ... then I can do "jobs" and at least feel "better" ...

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Not a good day today at Selayang Hospital ....

Today, I was suppose to meet up with a nice compassionate specialist to review my labs result but somehow, I was called to this "specialist", who I'd seen before and can be the most sarcastic, insensitive b**ch. I never liked her.
She is one of those who looks at you and say, you sure, you feel sick? She was the one who previously passed the remark, "you are always complaining you are feeling warm / flushed," and I snapped and said, "You asked, right?"

She makes you think like you are sick in the mind, that all your symptoms like tireness, nausea, lack of energy, loss of appetite is all in your mind! Come on, I lost my appetite with KFC!! This is bad! Every food smells funny to me, I want to eat but I want to puke at the same time!

Anyway, today - when I was called it, without even looking at my records, she asked, "How do you feel?" - I said I feel very, very tired, nausea, loss of appetite and ... suddenly she stopped me and said, I mean "lupus symptoms" like photosensitivity ... blah blah ..., I said, I'm always photosensitive, then she said, I don't see your rash, I said maybe not NOW! Blood was boiling at this point of time. Then she said, "Oh you looked well" and I snapped, "Hey, I don't feel well - my joints are better but I don't feel, sleep and eat well ..." - what a b**ch!

Then I said to her - look at my records, my urine has protein, my blood pressure is up - is it still okay? Am I still okay? Then she said, oh .. your 24H urine protein was only 0.33 - normal - I looked at her and wanted very much to say - excuse me, NORMAL means 0.15 and below, best is negative!
Fuck u! It is not your urine! I pissed 24H in a bottle twice, it is not an easy feat - having more than 2.5lit of urine each day! I asked, how about my latest 24H result? It went up to 3.63 !!!! 10 times! My albumin, Hb and complements (c3, c4) are low and my ESR is up to 47.
Why the fuck she don't read my labs before she start poking, making all these sort of remarks, questions! Oh fuck!

So, I said to her, very agitated .... Okay, if you say I'm fine, then I am fine, just my lab results are NOT FINE, okay? I said, check my blood pressure, see if it is fine OR NOT! Ooopps 150/90 ... so she had to double my BP control pill this time around.
She sensed I was going to ran amok with a syringe and start stabbing all the chairs in the hospital, and suddenly she became polite, nice .... brrrr...... she started explaining about the kidney and that she had to refer me to the kidney (nephro) gang in the hospital. This point I asked for Valium, I said "I CANNOT SLEEP" .... don't ask me to TRY because I have!

Anyway, kidney ward here I come next week for the biopsy ... life sux .... I have to be admitted for whatever they are going to do .... please god, let me have more compassionate (and competent) doctors / specialist !!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Reason to joy .... to be happy - another tooth fixed!

I have numerous teeth problem that will cost me more than my 12-yr old second-hand KANCIL, eventually!!!!!! That's bad - I have only one KANCIL and I don't think the dentist would want it for barter trade.

Doc while looking at my X-Ray - I may need three root canal treatments, yup - my teeth are that rotten!!

First, I've got one super big hole on my molar on my top set and then there's this lone last-standing remaining molar on my right bottom and recently a slight chip on my canine with a very very big amalgam filling (that makes me looks like Terminator's ex-wife) - the amalgam broke (I've only had it done in Jul-09!!!! seriously!)

My brain was trying very hard to "count" - I asked ... er... "How much?" Looking very, very pitiful and wishing that I had a calculator with me. The nurse went to find out the rates - molar RTC (mind you, X 2!) - RM 1,350 each (X 2), the canine RTC RM 900 - this is without the crown. Crown, basic one another RM 1000 for canine, the crown molar was ..... god, I've fainted at this point of time and suddenly I could count no more!!!

I looked at the dentist - so, what can I do now, with one big hole on my canine (since the amalgam fell off..) ... what's the RTC procedure like? Doc say he will fill it up with some "meds" before the appointment to do RTC. I am at the point of having to choose which teeth I love most? I need my canine for Angelina Jolie has one, but I need my molars too, otherwise how do I eat KFC? Maybe I'll let go the top molar since I've still got some spare teeth to support. Doc looked at me - pitifully, with the heart of compassion and said, okay, let's try to fill the canine with composite. It was a long job trying to fix it, he did it without any local anesthetic - good thing, it didn't feel painful - meaning the nerve may still be okay after all .. though not much original tooth is left!

My canine tooth now looks more like Angelina's ... she would be jealous .. trust me!

Thank you Dr. A of SmileShop - See you next week for my next filling! :)

Smileshop,
Unit D-13. Ground & Mezzanine Floors,
Plaza Damas, Jalan Sri Hartamas 1,
50480 Kuala Lumpur Malaysia.

TEL :- 03-6201 5003 (call for Anna, the sweet sweet lady!)
http://www.smileshop.com.my/

P:S : At least this dentist knows what lupus is and precautionary measure for tooth extraction!

Dentist ... dentist ... here I come ...

Yes ... seeing the dentist today - will be some serious cash outflow, I believe!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Lupus Nephritis (Lupus glomerulonephritis)

Yes - nephritis - "kidneys" - the two big bean-filters that process all sort of craps I take in ... salted fish, eggs, chicken ..... blah blah blah ..

As I am typing this - I am worried sick - so f-worried that what if it is really LUPUS NEPHRITIS? I don't want to be sick, I don't want to be poked at for a piece of my kidney. I don't want to get "boosted" with high dose of steroid or whatsover! I am beginning to hate all shades of green - GREEN means postive for protein and the darker it is, the more leak it represents.
I hate GREEN.


Dipstick before "dip"



Dipstick after "dip" - look at that Greenie +3 - 5g/L!!!!!


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P:S : I really feel like crying ... oh "kuan yim mah" - let me have the strength!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Dr. M says ..... (!%@#!%#$%$#!%$%#$)

"Mahathir: 9/11 was staged"
Oh holy god, holy moo-moo, holy oink-oink and we let this man administer "MALAYSIA" for donkey ages??????? How could he say this ... he is such a pain in the ass! He just has to blame the west for everthing that is WRONG!

First, he "taruh" OBAMA for not doing more for the middle-east conflict ... oh fuck-off, there are church-arsons behind our backyard and you are more worried about those miles away? How about Haiti, shouldn't that be top priority ...

Man, you are sick! You should just keep your mouth shut and let Malaysian and the world heals herself ... you bad, bad human being ... how can you be so inconsiderate over the those lives lost at 9/11?????? You mean mean old man!


P:S: That's it ... my blood is boiling and pressure will shoot right to the rooftop, with or without UV light!

No Money, Lots of Honey ...

I didn't work yesterday and today.
I actually did get some sleep yesterday and woke up a little refreshed (clap..clap...), it could be the Valium doing the work or the fact I didn't get much UV rays yesterday. I am beginning to feel like a sexy, ribena-loving vampire ... muahahhaa ...

Dipstick this morning shows a colour in between +2 and +3 - to worry or not, I don't know. To be honest, I am not feeling "THAT" sick, losing a bit of appetite, food smells awful to me at times - other than that, I feel "OKAY" ... my other half had been pestering me to quit my job like NOW, stop working - but can I? I've still got suppliers to pay!! My cashflow! Management accounts! Withholding taxes! Damn ... how can I quit now? If I tell him, he'll say, "YOU NEVER LEARN LA .. remember twice, hospitalised in Bangkok, still like that ... you don't love yourself!

It makes me wonder how many lupies are able to work full-time? I am trying but it is just so difficult!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Okay .... I didn't S.L.E.E.P

I know, I am suppose to take a nap but I didn't - my brain was like running marathon (must be the preds). I was trying so very hard to solve the mystery puzzle of my erratic blood pressure readings ... like I said, it is most of the time normal at home, once it rocketed up to 157/103 in Caring Pharmacy at IOI Mall three days ago!

First guess - I thought it was my stupidity - the OMRON machine ain't fool-proof ...

Second guess - I said - the machine must be screwed up BUT two doctors, one pharmacist tested it - it was OKAY!

Third guess - Environmental factor - what's so different between my house and outside, apart from my 12+1 indoor cats, 3 litter trays, stinky pillow?? My first hunch was the noise, yeah, sound ... I noticed that when I usually test at home, there's not much background noise - so, I switched on some music and noticed slight elevation in my BP readings when measured at home, it got worst when my hubby starts snoring! So, I said to myself, this must be it!

Tried some music again at home today but didn't seem to affect my BP readings at home ... hmmmm.....

Then, I said to myself - can it be the light? (no, no, not the light at the end of the tunnel!) - I mean UV light - shopping malls, clinics, building (and not forgetting, the SUN itself!) - then, the facts started rolling on to me ... my office has fluorescent lights, the building has fluorescent lights, clinics have fluorescent lights, walking to lunch exposed me to sun's UV and not forgetting shopping centers (and shops) are full of fluorescent lights!!!

I know for a fact that UV rays exacerbate lupus, but I thought it was only skin?

Now, I have quite a strong hunch (again) that my previous elevated BP readings were due to UV light???? Means I can't go shopping without sunblock?? Mean I can't work under the stupid fluorescent light in my office! I am getting sick all because of a stupid light????


*** Experience from another fellow lupie at http://www.itzarion.com/lupus-sun-uv.html ***

Pain is triggered by many things when you have lupus. The main triggers are the weather .. and the sun. Photosensitivity is one of the most aggravating triggers of the disease. It doesn't take much exposure to ensure a reaction of pain.

Lupus patients are very sensitive to UV rays, especially those who suffer from Discoid Lupus. It is a known trigger for a flare! That is why it is so important to wear sunscreen when outside in the sun. But what most people don't realize is, they should be wearing UV protection inside stores as well.

UV rays from the sun can trigger reactions in the skin in the form of a rash, or purple spots under the skin called pupura, but will also cause muscle and joint pain.

People with Lupus must also be aware of "hidden" UV rays as in Fluorescent lighting. If you work in an area with fluorescent lighting, then you should be wearing a sun screen even while working inside the building.

Also .. for those of you who shop at Walmart or Kmart, most grocery stores .. or ANY store that uses the fluorescent light fixtures (long rectangle boxes with long tube-shaped light bulbs) .. please be aware that fluorescent lighting gives off UV rays unless the fixture is fitted with a special lens.

Most fluorescent lighting can be covered with a protective Plexiglas panel that allows light through but not the radiation that triggers the pain. There is a UV protective panel available for fluorescent lighting fixtures but because of cost, it is usually not installed in offices and stores.

A two hour shopping spree in Walmart is equivalent to a full hour in the sun. You don't get sunburned but you do get the full hour of UV rays. Enough to trigger a flare of itching, rashy skin, aching muscles, low grade fever, and/or extreme fatigue.

And you thought the shopping itself was making you ill .. guess again!! It is the lights in the store!

So go prepared .. wear your sunscreen .. use a hat or a scarf .. and even though you may be tired from all the walking, you wont begin a flare that will last for several days.

Computer screens also give off small amounts of UV radiation. Most people are not affected by it, but people with lupus or other photo sensitivities should take precautions. Especially if you are in front of the screen for long periods of time (more than an hour at a time, for days in a row).

The best thing you can purchase to help eliminate the problem is a monitor anti-glare screen that fits over the monitor itself. It knocks down the glare as well as blocks the UV rays. 3M company makes several different kinds.

Limiting yourself to short periods of time in the sun will help eliminate some of the pain, but wearing sunscreen is a must! Sunscreen should be at least 30 SPF, with 45 SPF being a better choice!

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Also, read :- LUPUS and Light Sensitivity - download brochure at :- http://www.lupusuk.org.uk/factsheets/lightsensitivity.pdf

S.L.E.E.P.Y ...

Only god knows how worried I am, of course I put on a "happy" mask whenever I go off to work but deep inside, I feel like I am rotting ...

I've not been sleeping well, my blood pressure readings are driving me nuts with ups, down and normal, my urine dipsticks are always showing a +2 protein, sometimes +3 .. I hate it when I get that really "green" reading ... it used to be "yellow" (i.e. negative ..)

I am lucky to have found a very nice GP within the same building I work, I go to her daily to get my blood pressure readings - she charges me only RM 5 and gives me a warm smile whenever I see her - you don't really see GP with passion nowadays. Some just treat you like a prick.

My BP readings are most of the time "normal" at home, but when I get readings outside (like in the clinics, pharmacies ...) it hits on average a 150/95 .... so, I really don't know what's going on inside me.
I've had my BP machine tested by two different doctors and a pharmacy - it recorded similar value to theirs, so, conclusion - my BP machine is just fine..

Maybe my home is keeping me safe ... it has a special protective aura over me. This is me, trying to think positive.

I'm gonna try to take a little nap now ...


ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ






I can't S.L.E.E.P ...

It is now 3.19am and my eyes are wide open since my "pee, pee" at 2.00 am ...
This has been going on for days and I am having very, very, very sleepy days and restless nights.

I AM GOING BONKERS ... boink .... boink ... boink ...


Valium @ 7.30pm today didn't help ... trying another half a bit later ...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

144/97 ....

144/97 - machine (OMRON too..) reading @ clinic (diff. doctor) - 1.00 pm today.
I totally don't get it!
So play, play not, I then took my Vamlo 5!
My BP readings at home were 95% of the times normal! What on earth is going on?

I even brought my brand new OMRON machine for the doc to test, thinking that it is faulty and I would probably need to claim warranty and talah ... it measured 157/99!!!!!

Immedialy after I reached home, I measured again, it was normal?????? Huh?

Am I having White Coat Syndrome? BUT, the both docs I went too don't even have white coats on! OR am I doing something wrong somewhere? Oh bugger! Am I such an idiot?

"White coat hypertension, also known as white coat syndrome, is a phenomenon in which patients exhibit elevated blood pressure in a clinical setting but not in other settings ... "

Read more at :-
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/White_coat_hypertension
http://ejournal.afpm.org.my/2008v3n3/EBM_Commentary-white_coat_effect.html

I truly do not want to be over-medicated for reason non-other than being a fool / sucker!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Sumthing funny from work ...

Colleague Y : Hey, Boss-P asked if you replied to GM's e-mail on IT ..

Me : Huh? What IT?

Colleague Y : The one he wrote above improving and trying to get some feedbacks on the current system?

Me : Huh? What GM?

Colleague Y : That one lah - the new one, "R" ...

Me : Oh .... that "R" ... damn! I thought it was a SPAM ... I think I permanently deleted it! The subject looked like a SPAM!

Colleague Y : R wanted opinion by Thursday ...

Me : Ohh ... nevermind lah, I was sick anyway ... when did he send the e-mail?

Colleague Y : Tuesday ..

Me : Okay, covered, I was away Tuesday too! Muahahahaa...


I really did remember seeing the e-mail and deleting it because I thought it was someone trying to sell IT ideas! Don't blame me, his subject on the e-mail was like a SALES LINE!!!!!!!!!

"Internet communications and internal IT system ................"

Huh?? huh??? The moment I read the first two words, I deleted it! His name sounded like a SPAM too ... aiyoyoyoyoy ....

Lupie the Strange ...

I am getting very strange BP readings ...
Very ... very strange ...

It seems like at home it is not too bad? Probably I am surrounded by my loving cats and blood pressure just goes down when I see my "bubus" ?

First reading at Hospital Selayang was 150/90 - I was skeptical, thinking probably some leak somewhere ?????

Then, on my home blood pressure machine, BP's' measured weren't that bad - the worst value I've gotten was like 132/91, then I realised my Microlife BP monitor was pissing air ... leak-lah.

So, I rushed out at night, hoping to get my blood pressure checked at the nearest 1Malaysia clinic in Puchong Intan ... guess what? I couldn't find it, despite using my GPS ... can't even locate "Jalan Satu" ... spent 1 hour round and round with hubby and finally we gave up.

I was still very persistent in getting a second opinion of my BP ... so, I went to IOI mall, free BP test at pharmacy ..... WOW ... my reading was like 157/103 ... and I told myself, hey get a new BP machine, yup same one and they tested me on the spot (with the machine I bought) and it was still around the range of 150/90 something ...

I got home, tested myself ... again and again ... value were perfectly normal! I was getting values like 120/80 ..... 117/80 ... hey what happened? I spent RM329 on this machine and it acted just like my old Microlife!!

I woke up this morning. Tested myself again with my brand new OMRON ... same same normal range values ... good - maybe I don't need meds after all!

Just to confirm, I went to the nearest clinic at work, same building and requested a blood pressure test .... talah ...... 150/100!!! checked twice ...

So, what's going on ? About 45 minutes ago I checked my BPs, values were a-okay, normal .... don't tell me my house has a sacred aura that protects its occupants? Or is it my kitty cats????

BUT, not so good news is I've tested with urine dipstick twice, and my protein is coloured at the +3 level ... the max value for this particular dipstick.

Aaahhhh ... I wanna go to sleep now, yes, V-Power is almost out for the day, the fact is, I worked today ...

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Tired now ...

I think my V-Power Prednisolone fuel has run out ..

Feeling sleepy, going to oi oi now .... nite nite ....

The Great (or not so great) Prednisolone ...

It's been a while since I felt the energy in me ... muahahahhaha .....
Guess what? After the prednisolone, my tooth don't hurt so much anymore! (BUT, I am sure it is still rotting away ... like I said, preds just take away the inflammation ...)

Now .... I need a good dentist to do my root canal, any recommendation?

May "pengsan" on the chair during the procedure OR upon seeing the invoice ... so I need a good, affordable dental surgeon to do it! Any recommendation? (Current dentist I am seeing do not do root canal treatment!)

OR any dentist wants to do community service to a soon-to-be-jobless lupie?

I feel good ... la la la la la ....

I feel good .... la...la..la..la..la..la
Exactly what I've predicted - Power of 35mg of prednisolone!

My aches are all gone ... gone ...... gone .... (at least for today, or tomorrow ... or whatever ..)

This is the power of prednisolone, with great power come great responsibility - you can't be on high dosage of preds for too long, eventually, you will feel sluggish, psychosis (like trying to tie my cats' tails together), mood swings, weight-gain (NO GOOD!), moonface, camel hump, risk of bone loss, diabetes and trust me, this list is not exhaustive!

Prednisolone is used to bring down inflammation, that is good because no inflammation means no ache BUT long term use will eventually mask any infections / underlying conditions. Meaning, let say you have an infection, but because you are on prednisolone (which suppressed inflammation), you don't get a fever. However as the infection worsen, you will eventually get a fever and this can be dangerous as infection was discovered at a much later stage.

In a lupie case like mine, whenever there's a sign of flare, the doc will up the prednisolone significantly to suppress immune system activities. After all, Lupus is caused by an over-active immune system.

Normally, steroid-sparing drug will be in place to take over slowly from the prednisolone as a replacement while tapering off. Bad news? I don't have one. I was on Azathioprine (Aza) once but my white blood cell hated it and started dying off (or stopped producing?)... resulting in low WBC. So, I was taken off Aza and was on preds and hydroxychloroquin.

This time, apart from my aches, low grade fever, kidneys are being attacked! My 3 previous urine tests were positive for protein, with the latest one +2! Also my BP recorded at 150/90! I've never had high BP before!!!!! Low yes, but high, NO!!

Other than the above tests, my previous 24H urine test in Nov-09 was 0.33 g, value is abnormal but not high alert. Still, if it reached 0.5 - they make need to take a little bit of my lovely kidney to look under the microscope. I've just submitted another 24H urine today, let's just hope it is a o-kay! After all, I do feel well now...

About the 24H test, I am pissed as the Dr. was supposed to call me back if it is abnormal BUT she didn't! I did know the value was 0.33 (requested a printout from the counter in Dec-09) but I didn't know it was abnormal as the Dr. didn't call! Why didn't I call the Dr. instead? Well, reaching them is like getting lucky with MAGNUM consolation price ...... not easy!

Sometimes you get really good doctors, some simply suck big time. I remember receiving a call from a Dr. (different one) just to tell me everything is okay! Big clap clap!

My motto for today - "I feel good ... la la la la la ..."


Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Proteinuria ...

Dear Blog2,

I am oh so screwed up...

There you have it, another symptom added to my "LUPUS" list - Proteinuria

I feel so f-up ... my steroid has been upped from 1 tablet (5mg) to 7 tablets (note the "s" for plural ... f-it) - and did I mention my BP shot up to 150/90 ???? Another little tablet to help control my pressure ... and and ..... not forgetting another 24-H urine collection ... wow .... ain't my life interesting ...

My protein leak now stands at 0.3 g and guess what? if it hits 0.5 g - possibly a kidney biopsy!


Monday, January 11, 2010

Feeling sick ...

Dear Blog-blog,

I have slight fever, measured at 37.3C no wonder I felt a little feverish.
Plus, having dry mouth - it is so fucking sad when I try to talk but my mouth just sticks together like UHU. Makes me sound funny, like a duck.

Am I developing Sjogren? I hope not .. well, at least my eyes are not dry, just a little burning as if I am tired ... oh f-it ..


My bones hurts too, not muscle but bones ... it feels like it is hurting inside? Oh whatever ... it just f-king annoying (not that painful really ..) ..

Seeing the doctor tomorrow, let's just hope I don't end with a blur trainee doctor who stares at me blankly and all he/she does is repeat order the meds ...

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Dr. M says ....

Dr. M says ...
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/1/10/nation/5444044&sec=nation

".......reiterated his call for a closed-door discussion to resolve the situation following the attacks on four churches in the Klang Valley..."
(Everything also "closed-door", something to hide issit? Rakyat don't have the right to know?)

"... pointed out that using the legal avenue to settle certain matters might not take into account sensitive issues, which could provoke tension."
(So, cannot use legal avenue then use what??? Tell me, use what?)

"So, for the best interest of the nation, we must choose a better approach,"
(U sure or not, best interest of the nation .... sure or not or just ... for the interest of .....)

“Some people might make demands because they are mature but there are those around them who might not be. I think we should not be toeing the line of Western countries on the idea of being liberal”
(So ... are you saying - give in to the morons who likes to play with fire? Then why spend millions and millions of RM sending government sponsored students to western countries?)

Okay, okay Dr. M you are entitled to your "retired" opinions ... so am I ... I dislike your previous admin, you sent so many Ali, Ahmad to U (sometimes overseas) and left Ah Kau and Muthu feel unloved ... like "anak-tiri"!

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Body Ache ...

I woke up feeling achy all over and when I complained to my idiotic other half, he just said "Oh..".
I hate him ... I triple hate him ....

Friday, January 08, 2010

Rukunegara ...

First, the cow-head protest ....
and now, one church torched and attempts on two other churches ...
What has become of us, Malaysians?

Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan,
Kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara,
Keluhuran Perlembagaan,
Kedaulatan Undang-undang,
Kesopanan dan kesusilaan

It is all a cycle, you see, first .. we lost "Keluhuran Perlembagaan" & "Kedaulatan Undang2" - why? Look at the Perak case, the stay-order was granted by Court of Appeal in matter of hours ... speedy lightning processing .... (must be using the "potong-potong" broadband ..)
So, ask yourself, where's the kedaulatan undang-undang, appears to only "daulat" specifically.

Then, we have, the infamous cow-head protest - where's the "Kesopanan and Kesusilaan" and what happened to those morons? It seemed to have quiet down ... again, like Ahmad Said and his gang, Toyol and his mansion (not forgetting Donald and Mickey trip ...) - you can make things go away if you know people .. f*ck..

And now, "Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan" - this very first of the line is at the verge of collapsing. Why, because certain quarters think they own a certain "Arab word" and no one else in this land can use it except for them. Come one, it is an Arab word. If ones faith is strong enough, fear no confusion!

When this first line collapse, trust me, the second line - "Kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara" will soon too ... maybe it already did - the sales of the fighter engines!!!!!!!!!!