Ignored

School days.

I never liked school days.

Supposed to be the best time of one's life.

Ain't mine.

I hated school, I skipped often, only to stay at home,

No one noticed, anyway.

I am just like invisible.

I can't be invisible.

I'm huge.

Always being called 'names'.

Always being ignored.

Talked to, only because I'm pitiful or someone needed something.

It left a scar.

That can never be erased.

Even now, I still feel being ignored.

Just a couple of weeks ago, an ex-classmate asked if I wanted to buy something, which he can get way cheaper at his place. I said yes, feeling very appreciative.

Then weeks passed, he told me that the 'something' has arrived and he will arrange delivery.

I asked for bank account no,., he said, he'll send first, then only I pay.

I thought tide has changed, I am no longer ignored.

I waited, for 3 weeks, I messaged him - he then said - oh, so sorry I forgot to inform you, out of stock.. I said okay la ... believing him.

One fine day, I logged on to whatapps - and few ex-classmates were thanking him for getting that 'something' for them .... it even traveled miles over to another continent. 

I got upset. He lied. Looks like I am still the pitiful little duck.

Today, I exit the ex-school mate Whatapps group.

Every message I post, no one seems to take notice - probably dun even bother to reply.

Why should I stay, might as well exit.

At least I don't get those irritating notifications.

I should feel good.

I hope so.